I saw Chelsea saying she would check back, and there was no way I could disappoint!! I posted the above picture because......I like it for some odd reason. I don't think I look to horrible, and Katie in her diaper and hair bow pointing at the camera with her long skinny fingers cracks me up. Well ladies, here it goes. I am going to lay it all out there. I want my friends back. I feel so alone over here. I just want to be a girl again. It is no secret my life has been nothing short of hellish, and I just want to be me again. I have learned an important lesson lately. Bad things are going to happen, there is no stopping them ( like the bank losing my first paycheck, which the still have not found by the way!!!). But getting through them all is so much easier with your friends!! Lately I don't feel like I have many. Some of it is my fault, I admit I haven't called anyone or anything, but no one has called me either!! Please don't hide from me, I need you all now more than ever!! So that being said.....did anyone know I love driving a bus? I feel all powerful talking on the intercom saying SIT DOWN hahahaha. I feel very helpful, I get paid, and it sure makes the time go by fast. The other day I did this charter where I took the Yorkville High School marching band to Oswego High for some band performance thing. Guess what I did? I went home while they were there, ordered pizza with my two co-workers on the trip with me, and hung out for two hours and got paid for it!!! So awesome!! I sound like some giddy school girl who just got her first job don't I? What a dork :). OK, so other than that here is a brief overview of my goings on lately. I am working as a bus driver and liking it. Katie turned 1 and we had a super fun party for her at the clubhouse over here in Churchhill Club, Braeden started preschool and loves it, Braeden takes swim lessons two days a week at East High, I am still somewhat active, I even dyed my hair a bit, but it looks very natural, hmmm I can't think of what else, but I am sure there is stuff I am missing. Anyway, I miss you guys. I hope you don't all hate me, or judge me, or whatever. I just need my friends back, even if I have been a crappy one myself. Hugs to you all, imaginary ones for Amanda. Talk to you all soon.
4 comments:
From your title, I thouoght you wre going to tell us that you were addicted to gambling!!! :) Dawn, you are awesome and i am glad that you posted what you did. It is easier to get through things with friends. We are all here for you! I am so glad that you like your job! I bet you are a fun bus driver. We will have to get together soon!
I am so sorry you feel like that, but I know what it feels like to think nobody cares. *HUGS*
Prarie Dawn.....you know I love you girl! I hope you are having a happy day. Did you get my message yesterday? I've been thinking of you. I love the picture you posted, you look thin and happy--two very good things to be :)!Hang in there! You are such a sweet heart, it won't be this hard forever, just while you work through the sticky stuff! It's going to get easier. Hope you start feeling better.
Amy, I like your response. I really wish it was the case that you were all here for me, but it is not. Thanks for the thought though.
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